My name is Ben Cruickshank, I am a forth year Mechanical Engineering, a member of Central Church and this is my story.
I was born into a Christian family, and attended church from a very young age. I was around Christianity but never truly understood how it applied to me. I was taught about facts and bible verses, but my heart never truly understood who God was or how he could love me.
This became more difficult when I started high school. People knew I came from a Christian family so naturally placed an expectation on me assuming I would look, act and present myself in a certain way. At the time, I was a young teenager and I didn’t really know who I was. I didn’t know why God made me to be me and why he loved me. I wanted to refute these expectations and assumptions placed on me but couldn’t because I didn’t know who I was or who I was in God.
This all changed when I attended a Christian camp run by Scripture Union for people aged 15-17. I was surrounded by people who were my age but were Christians. Not because of any expectations or because they were raised in a Christian family, they chose to be a christian because they loved God and surrendered to him. This really took me aback. I’d never been in a situation like this before, and lead to me having a hard look inward. I was captivated by the intimate relationship they had with God, I wanted that. And that night at camp, as a 16-year-old boy, I prayed and invited God into my life.
I have been a Christian now for 6 years, but I was only baptised 3 months ago on the 26th September 2016 aged 22. Even though I was living for God as his beloved child, God wasn’t at my centre, I depended on my own strength in my emotions, finances and career prospects. I had chosen to be a Christian but hadn’t fully surrendered all my life to God. Like before, I was presenting a front but internally depending on myself.
When difficulties came and hardship entered by life, my own strength crumbled and I felt very sunk and overwhelmed by the storm I was surrounded by. And it was at this point that I realised the true beauty of God and the power of the cross. Not only did God step into my situation and rescue me, but he took me where I was, as I was with all my stuff and un-resolved problems. This deep rich love captivated me like before and changed my whole world. I chose to have God at my centre in all I do, with every step I make. To live a life truly worthy of the gospel of Christ and to let my mind be renewed. God is my centre; my source of joy and life and I find all I need in him. This is my story, I pray God blesses you in all you do.