My names Sophie, I'm 22 years old and I'm in my 2nd year at Edinburgh Napier University studying Learning Disability Nursing.
I grew up in a home where both my parents loved and supported me. My parents were not Christians, but I always remember from a young age being sent to Sunday school at our local church and have always had the belief that there is a God. I then started to get a little older and didn't want to attend Sunday school anymore and it wasn't long until I forgot about the things I was taught.
Moving onto 2006 and I've just started my first year at high school. From what I do remember I was nervous! Who will I make friends with? Will I like my class? I think we all had these thoughts starting school, but it wasn't long until I'd settled in and, I won't go as far as saying enjoying it, but none the less settled and it next thing I was heading into my second year. My life was good and just like most 12-year olds until it came to November of 2007 when my dad suddenly passed away. Losing my dad completely flipped my life around and emotionally I couldn't figure out how I felt or how to deal with it. Anger was soon the only emotion I could express, and I started to become a 'trouble maker' at school and academically not succeed at the level I probably could have.
I had a great group of friends who I'd met from all different places and we would go out to pubs/clubs or house parties and this seemed at the time a pretty happy life to me. Working and studying during the week, going out at the weekends.
When I was 16 I'd started working in a pharmacy and one of my colleagues was a Christian. I could always tell there was something different about her and yet, not doing any of the worldly things I spent my weekends doing she always seemed content and happy in life. It wasn't until I was 18 I started to realise something was missing from my life and I spent a lot of time trying to fill it with temporary fixes. One evening we had a Christmas night out for work and I started talking to my Christian colleague about her beliefs and told her how'd I'd been feeling. She invited me along to church that Sunday and I started to go every Sunday. I had begun to read the bible and learn about who Jesus Christ was and how he came as a sacrificial offering for our sins. The Holy Spirit had really began working in me after around 2 months of attending church. I began to realise that I was a sinner and that I needed saved. I became so emotional when I thought about how Jesus came and died for my sins even though He was spotless and without blame and all I needed to do was confess my sins and give my life over to Him.
On December 5th 2014, I came under deep conviction and realised that if I was to die today I would go to hell because I haven't given my life over to Jesus. This was the day I prayed to God and asked for the forgiveness of my sins and placed my trust in Our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ for the rest of my life.
Becoming a Christian in a family who aren't believers was tough but I Thank God everyday for a family who continue to love and support me through my walk and my prayer is that one day they will come to know Him as their own Lord and Saviour.
My Christian walk has been a roller coaster and within a year of becoming a Christian I began to get a darkness come over me, which was something I'd never felt. I felt low in mood and just not myself anymore. This was shortly diagnosed as depression. Depression and Christianity was something I had never heard of happening before and I began to question my walk with God because I should be happy and have no worries in the world as I knew I was going to heaven and that my sins were forgiven. I started to drift from God and praying and considered taking my own life on several occasions just to stop this feeling. I finally spoke to my minister about my depression and he helped me to look at scriptures and discussed how even Christians can struggle. One passage of scripture that really stuck with me was Isaiah 50:10. This verse gave me such comfort and helped me to finally combat it knowing that God was with me even in the darkest of situations.
I can honestly say that giving my life over to God was the best decision I have ever made, and I have been truly blessed with family, friends and a boyfriend who encourage me daily to walk closer with God.